clarkatroid is not folding

diary of a UK grinder

which makes my lack of blogging of late noteworthy by it absence. And theres some truth to that but inherent lazyness is the prime reason, as i have a decent 4 weeks on the cyber felt but still not posted

09 Poker Summary -ok here we go then. My well documented and now very boring 30k december downswing(not that im holding a grudge) was followed by 3 months of treading water and making a small winrate, at lower stakes, and gradually regaining this loss. Its been slow and painful but i got it back eventually. Im not complaining though as i know im very lucky to be doing this for a living, and its nada like a real job in the real world, but it is bloody stressful when things aint going your way and something probably only a fellow grinder will appreciate. 

The first 12 weeks of 2009 would look something like this. 14 days into the month i would might have grinded out maybe 10k-15k profits, then got "doomswitched"  and drop 10k in 3 days and 3 sessions and we are back to where we started. Alternatively, id drop 10k in the first week of the month and spend the rest of it trying to get it back. shite
So ive been constantly playing under pressure basically and hating every minute. Ive was dreading logging in to play a session,  nevermind taking the time out to write about said misery on these digital pages

So i figured somethings gone wrong somewhere. Although generic winrates are decreasing and the games are infinately tougher than they were, and this trend is set to continue, i cant have gone from a solid winrate of 4bb/100 to a break even/ 0.5bb winner overnight. Which is whats happened.  In context, i was winning between 15-50k a month and now i consider 10k a result with march break even over 90k hands.

im still playing sunday tourneys, and this wasnt going well either with 0 cashes from 40 starts

So yeah somethings definately gone wrong. First up, im tilting. not raging tilt, although i blow up after i lose 5-6 buyins ins in a single session wit the ole "fxxk it" move, and throw my dolla in the middle knowing im beat and refusing point blank to logically analyse the hand.

So, and ive said this before, im going to quit sessions after 5 buy in loss. i mean it this time.

and secondly, and this is a massive spot,  my positional sense has drifted completely out of synch, which i realised last week after posting this on 2p2

i cant believe my stats last month where so bad positionally. shows me ill have to review sessions more and not let this leak creep into my game again
so march was my 2nd losing month, and looking at this image, its easy to see why. i mean playing only 23% from the button is a unforgiveable, and im annoyed with myself for not spotting this earlier. Defending blinds too much and not playing co and button enough. Basics. Ive got everything back to front. With that in mind, ive re-energised my game recently.

These are my positional stats from last week, since i spotted this bullshit 
a drastic improvement basically.
figures
MARCH
CASH PLAY - $-980


hands played - 73025


loyalty bonuses - $3000


weekly hours 33
mtt results +$23337
total profits +$25357
It was looking like another dismal month but was saved by a donkament strike on the 30th when i won the 50 rebuy on stars for 32k.(900 runners). Again, i looked hard at my mtt game, watched some videos on lego poker, which helped tremendously. My mtt had rotted away in a similar fashion to my cash game, and watching these vids made me realise how out of synch i was in relation to how the game had progressed in general. It provided instant results and a much needed boost to my confidence just at the right time.

The 30th march donkament win proved to be the start of better things. I won an all expenses paid trip to austria on a freeroll thanks to my sponsor, centrebet for this. Didnt cash but really enjoyed the trip and the people we met.


 April - WSOP main event here we come!!

Better things continued in april and ive turned in a decent profit at the cash tables after plugging the leaks and generally playing better, with more logic and composure, and less desperation

figures
APRIL
CASH PLAY  $28624
hands played  82671
loyalty bonuses  $1500
weekly hours 46
mtt results -$1600
total profits +$28524


I won a WSOP  main event seat last week in a freeroll on my site, that had only 4 players in it!!!!
serious, centrebet poker has tons of value at the moment, as they try to grow their client base. if anyones interested, drop me a line and i can hook you up a good deal. i mean 4 players, and a free seat. jesus!
This is my first ever wsop, and obvously very excited about it all

this is how my year cash graph is shaping up
and this is my 12 month graph which visually depicts why ive been whinging better than any words can

update on my year goals

weight loss - slow progress but progress nonetheless.  Currently im at 13st10 pounds, from 14/2. i want to be 13 by year end

hand target of 1 million. which equates to 83k hands a month. as you can see fromt he graph im at 330k after exactly 4 months which is 82500. so im bang on the money here

omaha - play 1 day a week. im doing this at .5/1 heads up, not 1 day a week but a couple sessin a month and slowly picking things up

heads up play. plan was to learn this and its took some time to get to grips with. ive purposely been playing the regs rather than bumhunt , and ive lost.............
but i won last month
and i like it. and im getting better at it i think. i never expected to win at hu at the start, but im pleased with the progress and hopefully next month with exercising game selection ill post another win 
Shares -  im in gold silver, and im about the short the markets if they rally a little more. total portfolio down 7% atm, but this includes dealer charges and bid spreads. 90% my positions are in precious metals and these are for the mid to long term
car -
long story here, and its a pain in the arse tbh, but its coming along, just need some wheels and interior trim now. heres a peak

All in all things are pretty damn good atm

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