this is my first database that i havent actually managed to lose through hardware failure.
ive posted it on 2p2, http://forumserver.twoplustwo.com/54/poker-beats-brags-variance/1-year-1-million-hands-519211/ for anyones who might be interested
....To say it started off badly is the understatement of the century
It lasted 28 hands and 14 minutes . I lost 5k , calling 2 shortstackers all in and lost both races, and felt pig sick
There were 2 donks at the table as well which made it even worse, but i didnt have the stomach to reload, and that was never the plan. Back to msnl with my tail between my legs . Luckily i walked straight into a heater at 3/6 and got my 5k back pretty quickly.
So i got my month back at 25k and felt completely unsatisfied with my faggoty shot at high stakes .Bollocks to it, grow some balls *troidy. I had another shot this morning. I was really nervous and made a conscious effort to play well and not spew.
this time i ran good, and played good. barmpfh!!!!
Biggest winning day of the 09.
I promised myself i wouldnt play at these stakes regularly, and that this was a one off because id run good this month, but now my tiny brain is full of 25/50 thoughts, and im going to play it again tonight
the run good has rocketed junes garph to a stomping 34k, although theres a week to go and it could go either way from here.
ship ship
Poker has a habit of dramatically twisting your mental state. In december i hit a 30k, 50 buyin downswong, Needless to say i felt like a shocking player. As a result, in january, i banned myself from playing 5/10 and decided to play lower in an effort to steady the ship. In february i broke even at over 100k hands 2/4. Then lift off, with March, April and May all returning +20k months.
So in my mini journey i went from decent to donk and back to decent all in 5 months. Until now its never crossed my mind to have a shot at nosebleeds, ive always been a bit scared of them, with good reason. The players are shit hot /end of.
Now i should end this post, and abandon this dumb idea after that last sentence. But that aint gonna happen. The time is coming to donate to HSNL
Its niggling at me. Im thinking if i never take the odd shot im never going know. After all i got to 5/10 pretty quickly by taking shots early in my career, and enjoyed a good long run there for almost 10 months until the wheels fell off in december. Also the degenerate in me wants to put 10k on a single hand. I want the buzz of a shot. What if i double up to 20k. What if i win 4 buy ins at 50/100. Thats 40k . Just plain greed i suppose and there no point pretending its about anything else. Greed and Glory. GG NH me
My game might have some leaks but bankroll mgt is my number 1 strength. Im very cautious with my dolla, probably over cautious, as i have now have over 300 buy ins set aside for when it rains (not online of course. fxxk you hack monkeys). I realise this is OTT but i think one of the the biggest problems a player faces is funding. Funding to last out a huge downswing. Ive built up a large roll for insurance purposes. To minimise the chance of living in a town called busto. My worst nightmare is going broke and signing up with bad beat, giving up 50% my winnings and forfeiting any rakeback, having my acount stripped searched every day, and answering to a mentor when i tilt off a stack or 2.
So i carry this excessive bankroll. It helps me play better knowing im well funded
THE STAB-
the shot will be 1 buy in only for 10k. I lose it, game over
stakes will be 50/100 on full tilt
the shot will only happen when i hit 25k profits for the month.
I figure if im in profits for 25k, then i can afford it. At present im on 8k, so it might happen this month depending how stuff pans out
when i do it, ill blog the time im going to do it so anyone can pop over and have a butchers and watch the carnage.
Ill be pretty nervous so no monkeying around on the rail telling me i got AIDS pls
