clarkatroid is not folding

i got nowhere near my goal of 200k hands, barely breaking the 100k mark. Im not too worried about it though as ive had a decent month at the tables, hitting the 30k mark for the second time this year. To be fair the hand target was unrealistic, i should have tried for 120k hands, which is my goal for september.

September is the month of perpetual eternal dissappointment, sitting up playing poker until 8am after playing 12 hours in a tourney , only to bust out just before the bubble because ive fell asleep at the helm. Yep its wcoop month. Last year cost me a small fortune in ev from not changing my sleeping patterns and being unable to finish strong and alert. i went really deep to a big score several times and really regret not being mentally prepared for the long haul. And they are long long tourneys.

i spent the last 4 weeks playing on pokerstars, and everytime i won a buy in, i swapped it for a wcoop ticket. then i played a few steps games and was very lucky to get 2x5k tickets on the second day. The upshot is ive now got a full schedule which equates to 20k of tourney entries at a 4k outlay.  Im certainly -ev at stud , omaha and razz, and logically i should cash in my 2k omaha ticket for cash, but i want a shot at getting lucky so i might as well be in everything. Im way behind last years cash earnings, which i expected, but a decent hit in any of these bad boys will change all that.

this year looks likes this .
jan . +9695  rakeback +7500
feb  +13900 rakeback +2600
march -980 rakeback +3000
april +28624 rakeback +1500
may +24027 rakeback +5500
june +31529 rakeback +3800 
july -2518 rakeback +3800
aug.+31663 rakeback +5500
total 136922  rakeback total  29400

total 162326 plus 20k profits in mtts
overall running total $182326

Im 2 months behind in posting of my results , but for those who care, which i doubt is anyone, i hit 31k in june and -2.5k in july.

August is a free month schedule wise, so ive decided to push my limits by targeting a whopping 200k hands this month, which is 2.5x more than my normal monthly goal. The most ive ever done previously is 109k hands. i strike around 900 hands an hour so im looking at 220 hours of poker . About 70 hours a week. Thats a shit ton of stress, pressure, and concentration considering i can only play in 2-3 hours bursts

kims going to be doing the food shopping, the house will be a shit tip, and ill be pizzing in a bottle no doubt.

So far im on 30k hands and thats including two marathon 8k , 10 hour sessions. This puts me well behind schedule already

In all probability, i dont have the stamina to make this challenge, but ill give it a good go. My worst case scenario is putting in this kind of volume and breaking even/losing. This is a distinct possiblity as im going o be knackered and not on my "a" game for parts of it

The main reason for attempting it is greed basically. I want to win enough so i can buy into all wcoop events in september for free, and pay off the expenditure on my car last month. Im not thinking about win rates though, as i obviously have no conrol over that, im just trying to concentrate on the volume.